Put your feet in and let them go
They’ll want to nibble then retreat
Feast on the dead, you hope all the new will breathe in the light
If you flinch, they’ll run away
Think you’re onto them
Just stay there, don’t make any noise
They’ll come back
Then you’d sit there and let them manifest you
Bad you’d spend all of this time there
In the water
You can feel them
I decided to write with minnows as my metaphor for this memory because while it was and continues to be quite uncomfortable and invasive, the environment around it is calm and quiet. Also, it’s debatable to who the minnows are in the story. Maybe it’s me. Maybe it’s my grandmother. Maybe it’s both. It’s kind of interesting to think about.
I don’t really like talking about this memory, so I won’t go into detail, but it’s the memory of the first time that I learned that my grandmother is an alcoholic and then re-interpreting how she behaves at night. Long story short and vague, personal space gets invaded and it gets really uncomfortable. I chose to use minnows because my grandparents live on a pond in Martha’s Vineyard where the minnows get quite large sometimes and can actually hurt instead of tickle. We used to make it a thing to sit on their dock and let the little ones nibble and then get out as soon as the larger ones showed up.
I chose to make the ending very large because I wanted listeners to get so drifty that they would start questioning the words, because on the outside, without meaning, it’s just soothing minnows. Once you start to think about it, it gets weird.
And yes, if you’re thinking to yourself, “This sounds like a slightly sexual drum beat,” you’re not wrong. I did that on purpose. The more you think about it, the more uncomfortable it gets.
I’m still iffy on the title. I definitely want to make it questionable and not some relaxing loo loo type thing. This one may be a little too upfront, but I don’t know.
Instrumentation: guitar [acoustic and electric], bass, a copy machine [the hypnotic element that created the beat, sounds kind of like a ticking clock], shaker, some dinky drum midis, birds, water [all of the nature-related voice memos were taken at their house]
Looking for feedback on
General mixing and the form of the song -- I cut out a large chunk last minute, so I'm curious to see how this new form is perceived.